My Life.

Oh my goodness how I miss the days I could actually get ready for the day.  Get up off this couch and move my legs.  Seriously people. Bed rest has it's ups and downs.  I am so beyond grateful for my little Beckham and that he continues to grow. I realize and I know what a miracle it is to be pregnant. But bed rest is a challenge.  I can feel  my body getting weaker, it's not a fun feeling.  But I know if I just have faith in God I can get through this.  Plus, I would do anything for our little man.  He means the world to both of us, and this is just a short period in our life.

Steve is such an amazing husband.  He does everything.  Laundry, cooking and wakes up extra early to make me a good and healthy breakfast.  How blessed I am to have him for a husband and help me get through this.  Its been a challenge not being able to do anything, and watching him carry the load of everything.

I went to the doctor Thursday and we got to see our lil guy again.  We saw his little feet kicking, and now I know what's hitting me in the ribs every day. haha! He's a little busy body! I love feeling him move.  He's still measuring a week and 4 days a head of schedule. Which makes me happy.
Doctor told me that we could have him possibly at 33-34 weeks..which would be NEXT MONTH.  When he told me that, it made me feel a little worried.  Just because That is still pretty early, and I want him to be healthy.  Doctor also said that every day I can keep him in is a gift.  Since he's  getting bigger and heavier, he's always right on that stitch. And there isn't much there....

The doctor gave me two steroid shots, one on Thursday and one on Friday. It's to help Beckham's lungs develop quicker, in case he does come early.  The things I'm doing for our little man! Steroid shots are no fun.

Life is going good though. I have sooo many visitors every day, and it makes me happy.  So many family and friends have gone above and beyond for us.  Steve and I are very grateful.  I seriously know how it feels now, for elderly people. When they are at home day after day.  A visitor makes a world of difference.  If you have a grandparent or an elderly neighbor go visit them!! Once I'm off of bed rest and back in the swing of things, I'm going to make a huge effort to go visit those in need.

Something really sweet, my nephew who is now 5 said the cutest things to me.  I wanted to write them down so I don't forget.
 My dad had Carson and they both came over to visit with me, well my dad couldn't stay long and so he told Carson they had to go.  Cars looks at me and says "Keira Ill get what you need. I know how to climb counters."  So he stayed with me a while longer, while my dad ran an errand.  The entire time he was here he kept asking if I was okay and if I needed something.  He melts my heart.  Oh how I love him.
Another time he came to visit he wanted to go outside.  I reminded him I couldn't leave the couch.  He held out his hand to me and told me, he could hold my hand if I needed help on the steps. (I have steps outside my door.) Carson is the biggest sweet heart. Makes me so excited to have Beckham, and have my own little man with me all the time.

**Pregnancy update**

-I'm now in the 3rd trimester!!!
-I crave sweets like no other. I want a treat every day.
-Beckham moves all day, Steve and I  both love seeing my tummy move
-Steve tells Beckham made up cowboy stories-so cute!!
-Beckham woke up Steve for the first time, my stomach was against steve's back and he kept kicking Steve. Steve was so excited to tell me in the morning that Beckham woke him up.
-Beckham now weighs 2 lb. 9 oz.

Bex Nursery.

I've been busy planning Beckham's nursery.  I originally planned on doing an owl themed room, but it ended up turning a little more girly than what I wanted.  Our little man needs a little boy room, not a little girl one!! Steve is such a sweet heart, he would always tell me the owl theme was  a good idea etc.. Well, when I told him I'm changing the theme Steve was all for it! He kept telling me what a BETTER idea that would be.  So, I changed it to a nautical theme.  After I saw the Williams Nautica bed set. That changed my mind! It is sooo cute and is all boy.

 I haven't been able to do all the decorating that I had planned, because of bed rest.  Steve has been great and getting things that I ask for the nursery.  He's been working so hard and making it exactly the way that I've envisioned it.  I seriously have the best hubby.  I'm happy that Steve is enjoying putting together the nursery too, he gets really excited about how it's coming together as well!

Ill have to post pictures when it's completely finished, but here's a little preview:)

Hmm..what else? Oh! I had another doctor's appointment and I finally was able to get out of the house!! I was so excited.  I woke up at 6 that morning and couldn't sleep, it was like Christmas. Seriously though, I used to take for granite doing every day things.  The appointment went great, everything looks the same.  My doctor said we can start breathing easier come the end of September, when Beckham will be 30 weeks.

Here I am at 25 weeks! It was nice to actually get dressed!

Life is Full of Surprises.

I went back to work for 2 weeks and loved getting out of the house for 4 hrs a day.  It was nice to be back in my normal routine (sorta).  I LOVE having a schedule and being productive. It's just how I am. I have always been this way.
Steve and I went to the doctor's for my regular check up and we were excited to see our little man again.  They measured him via ultrasound, and he is still growing a week a head of my due date! He is healthy and I loved seeing him!! Seriously.  Miracle every time I see him.
They also measured my cervix, and unfortunatley it looked thinner.. My doctor was on vacation, and so the nurse advised that I go back on bed rest until I heard from my doctor.  So, that's what I did.

My doctor called me two days later in the evening.  I was really surprised to get a call from him considering it was already 6:30ish.  Side note-My doctor is the best doctor ever. Steve and I are sooo grateful that he is our doctor. He genuinely cares about me and Beckham.
Any way, so he called to check on me and to see how I was doing.  Wanted to make sure I wasn't getting contractions etc.. He then told me that it is critical that I am on bed rest. I'm to be on bed rest until Beckham is born.  My heart sank.
Once I got off the phone with my doctor I told Steve the news.  I felt worried, and wondered how am I going to be on bed rest until November?
I am so grateful for Steve.  He is such an amazing husband. I could tell he was worried as well, but was very positive and knew just what I needed to hear.

I can't even express on this blog how grateful and humble I have felt the past week.  We have such amazing family and friends who have gone above and beyond for us.  Simple visits, phone calls, meals, letting me know that people are here for us.  There are so many things that I could list and go on and on of service that has already been done for us.  Steve and I are very blessed.

I honestly didn't know HOW I was going to lay here for months...I prayed for guidance and peace. I had the thought come to mind that I need to make myself a schedule. So that's what I did.
 I'm now learning Swedish, baby sign, making file folder games and I have a list of other things that I'm going to be doing until our little one is here.  It has made such a difference.  I feel happier, and how can I complain?  Every day I get to feel our little one kicking around.  He reminds me why I am laying here day after day.  A couple months of laying here is nothing because in the long run we get a baby boy at the end of this.

This morning I got a phone call from my manager, the claims manager and the HR department letting me know that they are laying me off. After talking to them I started to cry.  I felt both sadness and peace.  Steve and I have been praying and talking about what the plan is when Beckham is born.  Steve graduates next May, so we were leaning on the idea of me working until than. Steve and I both knew that we received our answer.  I'm going to be a stay at home mommy! What I have longed for, for years!!! We both feel at peace and are excited that I'm going to be the one raising him.
Life is definitely full of surprises, but what comfort it is knowing that God is in charge.


Here I am at 22 1/2 weeks! I'm now at 24 1/2 and my belly is definitely getting bigger!!:) Love seeing my belly get bigger--means our little guy is too!

**Baby Update: **

-Beckham is a pound and 6oz. (as of last Tuesday)

-I crave sweets, especially ICE CREAM!! 

-I wake up every morning between 2 and 3 to use the restroom

-Beckham sometimes wakes me up in the night! He really moves around at night

-I got a bloody nose once a day for a week. Thank goodness that has stopped!

-My hair is getting thicker and nails longer..I know that will end come his due date

Bed Rest.

I went on pretty strict bed rest for over a month.  I would have to lay flat unless I needed to take a shower or use the restroom.  This was VERY hard for me.  I have always been such a busy body.  I love to be getting things done and feeling productive.  I love being social. I remember feeling in despair at times, just laying on the couch and alone.  I felt helpless.  I kept wondering why I couldn't have a normal pregnancy.

I know, I know. I really shouldn't complain, but this is how I felt.

During the first few weeks laying down I started to feel Beckham.  I swear every time I started to feel that sadness come over me I would feel some movement of our little guy.  I began to realize that even though this pregnancy is hard.  It's all so worth it.  I have the amazing miracle of growing our little baby. I prayed for years, I cried for so  many years waiting for him. And he's here.  I can't complain.  I've been soaking it all up, and enjoying every movement.  I am so grateful for our little miracle.

I continued to go in for a multiple check ups at my doctor's office.  Beckham continue's to grow strong and healthy!  My cervix even started to look a little thicker with the stitch.  My doctor said he felt comfortable with me getting up more and preparing my body to go back to work. But I would only be able to go back to work for 4 hrs a day, and than it's back to bed rest.  I was thrilled.  So, I started getting up more and easing my body back into it.

Steve would take me places and we would look at baby stuff.  My mom and sisters would take me places as well.  It felt so good to get out of the house.  Easing back into it wasn't by walking around the stores though.  I had to be pushed around in a wheel chair.  Or if I was really lucky I would get a motorized one.  I got a good kick out of it when I was riding the motorized ones. If I needed to back up it would make a loud BEEP-BEEP-BEEP noise.  (basically the sound of a utility truck)

                                               


I also got tons of cuddle time with baby Victoria.  One of the coolest things is that when she cries Beckham starts kicking.  When I ask Victoria about Beckham she smiles and laughs.  I recorded this video that shows it.  (Baby Taggart-the one i'm referring to in the video is Kjersti's baby)

I've received so much love and support during this pregnancy.  So many great family and friends who have brought us dinner, and visiting us.  We are very blessed!!!

  

Miracles Happen-Part 2

When Steve walked in the hospital, I felt some relief. We both hugged as tears kept going down our faces.  We were both worried.  I started to feel more pressure and cramping in my back so we told the front desk.  They then got a room set up for me, so that I could lay down and get things started.
As Steve and I were in our hospital room we both said a prayer to our Father in Heaven to please protect Beckham.  It was a really tender moment for Steve and I.  How grateful I am for Steve and for the power of prayer. The nurse came soon after and started getting me hooked up to monitors and listening to Beckham's heart.

My dr. came in told me the procedure again, and what things could happen.  He told me both the good and bad.  If the cerclage works I go on bed rest and hopefully go full term.  The risk of doing the cerclage now (since my cervix is thin) is that the needle he uses to sew the cervix could break the water and we lose him.  Of course I had a lot of fear when he told me the risk, BUT we would lose him if we didn't do this procedure.  The dr. than said we need to get this going before the cervix thins any more.  We told the dr. we want to go ahead with the procedure but we wanted to be left alone for a minute so that I could receive a blessing.  Both of our parents came to the hospital as well, and so Steve and both of our dad's were able to give me a blessing.  I am SO grateful for the power of the priesthood.  I felt comfort and peace as the nurses wheeled me back into the operating room.

I won't go into detail about the actual procedure, but I know that Beckham and I were both being watched over.  I have aways been so scared of the idea of an epidural, and sure enough I had to have an epidural for this procedure. I also had to be wide awake.  It's amazing how calm I felt, and how I didn't care what needed to be done.  I just wanted our baby safe.  It's crazy how much I already love Beckham.  I would do anything for him.  I put all my fears aside, and relied on my Father in Heaven.
I was wheeled back into the room and was told that I would need to stay overnight. The procedure was a success and our little one is safe.  I woke up so many times that night for multiple reasons, but I just remember feeling so overwhelmed with gratitude and joy.  How grateful that I didn't lose our little Beckham that night.

Dr. ordered that I go on bed rest.  Possibly bed rest for the entire pregnancy.  He has never had this happen before.  That's why this is such a miracle.  Most women who find out they have an incompetence cervix usually ends bad.  They usually miscarry the first pregnancy and than for other pregnancies they do a cerclage.  Dr said he usually does a cerclage at 13 weeks, and way before the cervix starts thinning.  Our baby is a miracle.  Every time I've talked to the nurse-Cindy, she always says she knows there was divine intervention that day.  She knows it.  Steve and I know it to.

Miracles Happen-Part 1

On Father's day,  I started to get a little crampy in my lower back and I started to feel some pressure.  I really thought that it could be from my belly growing.  But I was extra cautious and didn't hold any of the  little one's during our family party.  You know when you get those feelings that something just isn't feeling quite right?  Before leaving my parents house I got super emotional.  As soon as I hugged my dad and told him how much I loved him, I lost it.

Monday, I went to work and I was still feeling that same feeling.  Crampy, pressure and this feeling that something could be wrong.  I called my nurse to tell her my concerns.  She told me she thought it was a good idea if I had an ultrasound done and then a urinalysis.  The technician at the office was booked for the day, so she asked that I go across the street to this imaging office and than after come in and do the urinalysis.  

I felt relief knowing I could see Beckham and make sure everything is going ok.  I called Steve and let him know that I'm going to go get checked.  Steve hasn't missed any dr. appointments and he wanted to come, but I let him know that everything would be fine.  (He was in the middle of working at Costco rotations).

I went to the imaging office and the technician was super nice.  I saw Beckham kicking around and waving his cute hand.  I asked the technician how Beckham looked and if everything looked the way it should be.  He told me that everything looks good from what he could see and Beckham is measuring a week a head of schedule.  He told me he would send the images to my doctors office and if something doesn't seem right, they will let me know. 

I was feeling confident again, and sent Steve a quick text letting him know everything is fine! Beckham is even growing a week a head of schedule!:)

I than went to my doctors office and did the urinalysis, as I was a about to leave my nurse came over and told me she needed to speak to me.  My heart sunk.  I started to get worried.
She sat me down and told me that my cervix is thinning.  She said that it can be common, and I'll need to come in and have another ultrasound on Thursday.  She said if it keeps thinning I'm going to need to get a serclage- ( sew the cervix shut).  Connie, the technician at my doctors office walked by and Cindy(my nurse) introduced me to Connie.  She told me that I'll be seeing her on Thursday, and she would be checking my cervix often throughout the next couple weeks.
Connie said she could do a quick look right now.  Cindy, said "Connie, your busy! You have a lot of people to look at it."  Connie said, "no it's fine. Ill do a quick look". Connie takes me and does another ultrasound.  She than tells me my cervix is a lot thinner than what the first technician had originally seen.

My cervix at this point should be at a 3.8 centimeters, the first technician said it was at a 2.8 and it was really only at a 1.5.  TALK ABOUT A MIRACLE that Connie wanted to check and look again.
My doctor took  me in his office and told me the plan.  He was very serious, and told me that if I want to save this baby we need to do emergency surgery in 2 hours.  They would need to sew my cervix shut.  I was going into pre term labor.  I told my doctor I would do anything. I said I'll plan on surgery in two hours.  I than started to cry.  The tears just kept coming and coming.  I felt so much fear and hopelessness.  I could lose my baby.  The baby that we prayed for, for so many years. Cindy took me aside and kept hugging me. Telling me everything is going to be fine. She asked if she could get a hold of Steve for me.  I told her that I could call him.  I called Steve and he wasn't answering (he had his phone on silent since he was working) so I call my mom.  I'm crying and asking my mom and dad to meet me at the hospital.  I still couldn't get a hold of Steve so I sent him a text. Reading: Call me ASAP please! I have to go in for surgery.  Steve calls me and asks me what happened and what surgery. I told him everything.  Steve left work and met me at the hospital.

Finding out the Gender!!!

On Friday, June 7th we found out what Baby Ford is! Steve and I couldn't wait the full 15 weeks to find out what he/she was. So we went when I was 14 weeks and 3 days.  On our ride there we were both sooo anxious! Once you find out the gender, it makes it seem so much more real.  We than can start calling baby by name.  Steve and I both didn't care what gender baby was. We just felt so grateful that this little miracle is growing inside of me.

Baby wasn't very cooperative, and didn't want to reveal what he/she was! When we first saw baby on the ultrasound his/her arms were up in the air while baby slept.  Already taking after his mamma! ;)

The tech was able to get baby moving, and then revealed we are having a BABY BOY!!!!!  Our little Beckham.  Steve and I were both overwhelmed with excitement!  Beckham already has a lot of personality.  When the technician was trying to get him to move again, she started pushing a little on my stomach where he was.  He put his little fist in the air and did three fist punches up at her! It was so funny! He also is a thumb sucker.  He loves his hands and always has them up by his face.

When we left Fetal photos, Steve and I went to our favorite place to eat- Tepanyaki Steak house!  We only go there on special occasions.  This was  definitely a special day!  On our drive there, we just kept laughing and then yelling- We're having a baby!!! a BABY BOY!! It almost seemed like a dream.  We also gave thanks to our Father in Heaven.

Dinner wasn't as good as what I remember it always tasting...and I of course ended up in the bathroom.. but it was such a special night for Steve and I.

After dinner we couldn't wait to share the good news with our immediate family!  Because no one knew we were going this day, everyone was busy doing things! We just told everyone we wanted to come visit.  Kody and Jade ended up being the first to know that Bex was a boy! We showed them the video and Carson was super funny.  He would say "he looks like an alien"  and then "how is he in there?" and points to my belly.  We then were able to show the parents, and both parents reactions were awesome!  Everyone is excited for this little man to join the family!

I'm sooooo excited!! We're having a little man. OUR OWN little man!!!!